Beautiful Boy (I) (2018)
Timothée Chalamet: Nic Sheff
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Nic Sheff : When I discovered drugs my world went from black and white to technicolor. I can never give that up. So I tell people what they want to hear.
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Nic Sheff : One day, I tried methamphetamine... Yeah. That felt good... and I thought, "This is what's been missing." I felt complete. Today's a good day. Yeah, I've been chasing that high ever since. No matter... how much meth... or whatever else I can find to shoot up into my body... I do, it's never enough. And I went to a couple of rehabs, I detoxed, they would talk about disease, sure, but... it never clicked. Until one day I woke up in a hospital and someone asked me, "What's your problem?" And I said, "I'm an alcoholic and an addict." And he said..."No, that's how you've been treating your problem."I know now I need to find a way to fill this big black hole in me. Anyway, so I'm fourteen months clean. I have a job at a rehab. It's fulfilling to help other people get sober. I have a sponsor, Spencer. He shows me how great my life can be sober. And, um, I still have family. My mom's been amazing. My dad's been amazing, too. I want them to be proud of me.
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David Sheff : I thought we were close. I thought we were closer than most fathers and sons! Why?
Nic Sheff : I felt better than I ever had, so... I just kept on doing it.
David Sheff : This isn't us! This is not who we are!
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David Sheff : So how you doing?
Nic Sheff : I'm doing great, you know, just, um... um... just doing what needs to be done, and...
David Sheff : What does that mean?
Nic Sheff : I'm sorry, Dad, um...
David Sheff : Why don't we just have lunch and talk? We can do that, right? Please. You think that you have this under control.
Nic Sheff : I understand why I do things. It doesn't make me any different. I'm attracted to craziness, and you're just embarrassed 'cause I was like... you know, I was like this amazing thing, like your special creation or something, and you don't like who I am now!
David Sheff : Yeah? Who are you, Nic?
Nic Sheff : This is me, Dad! Here, this is who I am!
David Sheff : This is not you! This is not you, Nic!
Nic Sheff : What are you doing, huh? You always gotta be controlling everything all the time!
David Sheff : Let me book you a room at a hotel for a couple nights.
Nic Sheff : No, Dad. No, Dad, I want it to go like this.
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David Sheff : Jasper's savings disappeared.
Nic Sheff : Yeah? That's weird.
David Sheff : Did you take his eight dollars?
Nic Sheff : What?
David Sheff : You heard me.
Nic Sheff : Why would I?
David Sheff : It disappeared, and somebody has to have done it.
Nic Sheff : Right, so it's me. This is fucking ridiculous.
David Sheff : Are you using again?
David Sheff : Are you high right now?
Nic Sheff : What the f...? No. Fuck you.
David Sheff : *Fuck you*? Don't talk to me that way. Are you high right now?
Nic Sheff : No.
David Sheff : You're not using right now? Are you using?
Nic Sheff : No, Dad, I'm not fucking high right now!
David Sheff : Okay.
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Nic Sheff : [repeated exchange] Everything.
David Sheff : Everything.
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Nic Sheff : I'm sorry, dad, I just need some fucking money.
