The Affair (TV Series)

Episode #5.6 (2019)

Anna Paquin: Joanie Lockhart

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• Luisa Leon : Your mother was in a tremendous amount of pain. She was not a strong person. Not like you. But she loved you.

  Joanie Lockhart : Come on, I was the replacement child.

  Luisa Leon : Oh, my God, don't say that.

  Joanie Lockhart : Sometimes I think she just wanted the rest of us to be in as much pain as she was.

• Joanie Lockhart : Ever since he died, I feel like I can't hold her out of me anymore, like she's possessing me. I think about killing myself all the time now. On subway platforms, when I'm holding a bottle of pills in my hand, when a fucking truck goes by. I have violent sex with strangers, I work and I work and I work some more because I'm afraid of having any time to myself because I'm afraid of what I will do with it. I've spent my whole life shaping myself to be the opposite of her, and it's not working anymore. None of it is fucking working.

• Joanie Lockhart : Why didn't we ever talk about the night she died? About how it happened?

  Luisa Leon : How are you supposed to talk to a seven-year old about suicide?

  Joanie Lockhart : You sure it was suicide?

• EJ : Everything okay?

  Joanie Lockhart : He wasn't my dad's boyfriend. He was my mother's. I think he killed her.